time space foam

this past weekend was pride in toronto
queer pride
I was at a conference
a man named Brian Swimme was giving a talk
friday night and saturday until 6 pm
I was a little disappointed that I had agreed to go
I was missing out on the beer garden and roller derby halftime show
my girl was wearing short shorts, tall socks and getting sweaty
I was the av girl in a dark auditorium at u of t
but I agreed to go
Ed O'Sullivan thought it was a good idea that I be there
and if Ed or Eimear or Jeannette or Leslie
think it is a good idea
I tend to listen
I have been blessed with mentors
abundant
mentors awakened
and in this dark auditorium in downtown toronto
I was once again in the right spot at the right time
pride
evolution
i was given the language to the knowledge that I already possess in my bones and blood
i have always known the truth
i just didn't know the words in english
i wasn't taught in grade 8 that science is our entry point into the divine
i dropped biology as soon as possible
memory games and facts left me bored and depressed
we really are made of star dust
the hydrogen that was created during the first star that exploded to make our universe is in us
cosmology
we are 15 billion years of knowledge in the making
we are the evolution of a being in process
on monday i woke to the words
"frothing forth" running through my mind
this is a scientific term to describe life becoming in our universe
life is constantly frothing forth
frothing forth frothing forth frothing forth
on tuesday i woke up with clear insight into the depth of this process
in all of our backyards and all of our composts life is frothing forth
in each second life evolves and multiples
my head was filled with the balance of a rainbow burst forth from a garden and the darkness that is our universe....the void...the quiet...the abundant
this is who we are
on wednesday i woke up with the words
"planetize the movement" running through my head
this is a quote from Martin Luther King
brought to me through the poetry of drew dellinger
this morning
July 9th I woke up sobbing
I was weeping for the mass extinction of species
the holocaust
the genocide
20,000 species go extinct each year
this is our doing
humans have become a geological force
this will still be big news in 5 million years
waking up is hard to do
be the change
it won't be easy
you will have to stick to the hard road
but at least if your grand kids asked you what you did
you can say
you ran in the streets and yelled fire
you changed your way of speaking
from resource to relative
from resource to source
from animal to friend to brother to sister
from plant to grandmother
from sun to grandfather
from moon to grandmother
we are all related
give thanks have gratitude
thank yourself
love yourself
have patience

High Park Discovery walk with Andrew McMartin

Next Spoonful Gathering
High Park Discovery Walk
Monday June 29th
6 pm until dark
meet at the High Park Subway Stop
High Park Ave Exit

find out secrets of the park
natural dyes
edibles
medicines
tools
animal tracks
life in the city

there is a lot more to the story

stories and art
reconnecting with land and each other
this is how we will find our way through the pain
stories and art saved my life
stories and art taught me how to be
stories and art changed me
this is what the fourteenth circle was all about
we also touched on death, being indigenous, ancestors, connection to place,
memory, the guilt that we carry through our ancestors, the longing for connection to land,
patterns in history and cultures.....you will find the truth in the patterns.
patterns don't lie
it is wonderful to sit in circle and have the space to discuss these kinds of things.
it is inspiring and invigorating to make a film with people
this is what I love....collaboration, teamwork, and brainstorming
fitting our stories together
finding the thread that weaves our stories side by side
this is how we are going to make it through the next few years
through the awakening
through the crisis

together

with compassion in one hand and insight into our radical interdependence with all phenomena in the other hand
these are our tools
I would also like laughter, creativity, innovation, and courage in my toolbox
we are in training
body mind and spirit
hear the call
begin to exit and open your eyes
join the movement for life
for change
for love
for light
you are powerful
you are divine
hear the call
answer the call

finding the threads

we are hanging by a frail thread
all life is threatened
we are here in the future
where we drink water full of pesticides, pharmaceuticals, and jet fuel
our food is engineered and we are distracted to the point of exhaustion
we have created hell on earth.
it is our creation
and we can unmake it.
this is good news
the other good news is that we are here together
with each circle that we hold I become aware of the importance of sharing our stories
sharing our dreams
facing our pain together
creating art and beauty together
speaking from our hearts
loving ourselves
finding joy and success in the simplest actions
taking action
it is time to share our dreams and sounds
we are in the beginning
and in the beginning there was darkness
the first creation was sound
make some noise
and listen
this is scary for me
my voice is scary to me
will it crack, will it go off key, will they laugh at my tone and tonelessness?
i know that I will feel stronger if I start to use my voice
this comes at the same time that I am learning to be a more attentive listener
funny how that happens
two sides of the same coin
listening and sounding
both are hard and both are calling
a spoonful of honey grows with each week.
the film and installation are finding their shape
we are finding the thread that weaves through all our stories
we share
we will begin in darkness and end in darkness
the power of art to make change and give voice to the people
is empowering and exciting
join the circle
listen to your elders
listen to yourself

the truth about youth

Thank you all who joined us last night in the park and at Charles Street Video.
It was an evening of spinning webs.
grounded and supported by water and earth.
We sat in circle in Trinity Bellwoods park with Garrison creek rushing underneath.
Hidden in a concrete pipe but still flowing with life and light.
We were a group of young people joined for a quick 20 minutes by Ron Cook.
He was on his way to laughtercize. He is in a class with seven women.
In his words....
"I guess men don't know how to cry and men don't know how to laugh!" He is the change.
He spoke about the strength and creativity of the young people today.
The ones who have returned and are returning to the planet to help human life elevate and enlighten at this crucial hour.

The wisdom that was in the circle last night was humbling and courageous.
It was strength and creativity in action.
The circle of youth was a circle of love and respect for all our relations.

The youth are awake.
we are awake. we are living the change. being change.

It you have a question ask a young person.
They will have an answer.
the younger you go the more honest your answer.

after this calming and invigorating circle in the park we moved to Charles street video,
where we watched ourselves clown around and embrace the structure of clowning.
I have to say that it is awesome to sit with people and watch footage together.
To pick out great moments and begin to build the film.
My great fear is that it is boring...perhaps it is a bit boring but it mainly it is fun.
It is action. It is the process.
and this is what I love.
the snacks are good too!
our film is taking shape.
It's just a baby.
we have a year and more to nurture it, build it, weave it, and blow life into it.
in art and love
we are rich and wild
chi meegwitch
a spoonful of honey